Update and ramblings

So it's been a while since I updated. Figured I might as well.

I intended that this blog be an outlet for my emotions or moods or whatever else I happened to be feeling. But lately I've not had a lot to vent about. That isn't to say everything has been great, or even good, things have been uneventful I suppose. Perhaps just uninteresting to outsiders.

Not a lot has changed. I suppose I've met a few new people, made a few new "friends", I use the term loosely as to me people are all expendable in some way or another. I'm still not sleeping well but the nightmares are less frequent. It's the dreams that disturb me in sleep now. Dreams are always worse, where they are not weird of course.

I'm looking forward to returning home for the Easter holidays. There are certain things I miss. I miss my cat (though i've found when I do go home I quickly grow tired of him) and I miss Gareth (though I only see him slightly more often when I'm at home). I also miss the countryside itself, the city is interesting enough but sometimes it's nice to look out of your window and hear nothing but the wind and the birds in the trees, or to see no people just green landscapes stretching into valleys, rivers and fields. I used to go for walks in the countryside, I'd stay out until just after dusk when the bats would come out. If I were to stay out until just after dusk here in the city, all that would immerge would be crackheads and drunken idiots.

Though I suppose when you live in the city you long for the peace of the countryside and when you live in the countryside you miss the hustle and bustle of the city. Never anything to do in the country, far too much to do in the city. No human can appreciate what they have, I know if I did I'd just try to spoil it. Only happy when I'm miserable :P

Reaching for the out of reach.

No prize is worth attaining if you can never share it, there would be no point.

-sigh-

I was going to post an elaborate entry all about how I'm feeling, had it all typed out and everything, but instead I think I'll just post a string of profanities and be done with it:

Jesus fuck bastard accursed damnation shitting twot!!!

I feel slightly better. Think I'll go kill myself for a bit.

Parteh

We're having a party on saturday. Everyone seems to be really looking forward to it. Me and Dan decorated the flat especially, we even got a christmas tree. Hopefully the party will be a success, enough people are coming for it to be fun.

Essentially, with the exception of Rob, we're a flat of bachelors which before a party always seems all the more obvious as a fact. I think they're all hoping for a little romance this christmas and certainly for a little romance at the party. To that end I've helped the others out by giving them one of my better ideas. Seeing as how the majority of people invited are female I suggested placing mistletoe above the front door so that when they go to let the guests in they can ask for a kiss before entry is granted. I'm looking forward to seeing the inevitable rush to answer the front door when the bell rings hehe.

Myself, although I'm looking forward to the party, I'm not hoping or looking for anything of the romantic nature to happen. I'd much rather place it in Fate's hands and if anything happens, it happens. I don't think I have much heart in me for romance.

At this party I shall be mostly playing Singstar. Perhaps I'll sing a duet with someone or perhaps just serenade the room :P