I've not been sleeping well recently. I don't know why. If I do fall asleep and I'm unlucky to dream it's always grotesque nightmares I cannot awaken from.
Other than that life is fine, I have nothing really to complain about. Things are ok, not great but not bad either, so-so.
Just patiently waiting for my tea to cool and my world to collapse or rise.
Tomorrow Shawn and Ruth are to be wed.
I wish them happiness here now and tomorrow at the wedding and then forever after.
But perhaps the passion will one day fade as it does with everyone else. Then the romance will die as it cannot live without the passion. Finally the love will die malnourished from lack of passion or romance. People sometimes stay together even then because without each other nothing makes sense, because everything in the world only ever existed for them when they existed together. It's only ever there and it's only ever beautiful when seen through lover's eyes.
A stark view of "love" perhaps. I doubt it holds true to all people and certainly not for Shawn and Ruth, they fit together too well. I half expect them to die at the very same moment once they are in their old age. I'm happy for them and I'm looking forward to being an usher at their wedding.
I know Shawn has been stressing out over the wedding for months, it'll soon be over and he can relax.
As for my living in Bristol, it's been nice. No internet yet which is a tad annoying. Met some lovely strippers though.
I'm going back to Bristol today. Moving the remainder of my stuff into the flat.
No internet at the flat :( So farewell to those I won't get to talk to for a while.
Y'know that nasty feeling you get when you feel like something really bad is going to happen soon or some horrible occurance of bad luck is closing in on you? Well I've been having that feeling for the past few days.
I have been having a bad few days. Nothing major, just lots of little/medium-sized things going wrong.
Friday was Elize's birthday meal and my hair decided it wanted a bad hair day all of a sudden. (Tiny thing really but I wanted to make a good impression on people I hadn't seen for a while).
On the drive back I almost had an accident. (Thanks to my mad driving skillz I survived.)
This morning I was almost late for work and had forgotten my keycard and my knife. (Irratating but not a problem really).
On the drive home my car broke down at a very dangerous location and I had to push it uphill to a safe location and then run 3 miles to get home because this morning I had also forgotten my phone (I say "forgotten" but I actually never take it with me anyway). That's right I had to run 3 miles in the pitch dark after a 12 hour shift of manual labour in which I was on my feet the whole time. (This one really annoyed me but on the plus side I discovered that thanks to my job I'm fitter than perhaps I've ever been).
Looking at this list I've noticed that the occurances of bad luck are getting progressively worse and seeing as how the foreboding feeling is still with me I'm guessing the worst is yet to come.
-sigh- Ok Fates, what's next?
